Yesterday, I went for my gynae check-up at 37weeks 2 days. I had put on 700g in the past 2 weeks! And I was wondering where did this 700g go to? When gynae did the scan of the baby, he said that baby Janine now weighs about 2.9 - 3.0kg, as compared to 2.3kg two weeks ago. My worst fears came true...the 700g all went to baby Janine! And she seems to be growing at an exponential rate!
For Janelle, at 38 weeks => 3.0kg
When she popped at 39 weeks => 3.6kg (birthweight)
For Janine, at 37 weeks 2 days => 3.0kg
When she pops...=> ? kg
Hmm...what does logical deduction tell you??
Can't help but feel discouraged that my hopes of having a natural delivery this time round are slowly diminishing with each passing day that Janine stays in the womb. Gynae also said that the earlier Janine arrives, the better the chance of a natural birth, if not she might just grow too big for me to deliver her naturally.
I've been asking myself why am I so hard up for a natural birth? After all, most people would say that as long as mother and baby are healthy, that's the most important thing. True, I agree, but I can't help but want to experience how it's like to deliver naturally. And it irks me that the only reason why I may end up in a C-section again is because baby is too big! (blame Royston's genes!!). Yet I try to console myself that there are greater and more important issues at hand, like reaching out to our friends with the love of God this Christmas, like world evangelisation, etc etc. Whether or not I end up with a natural birth or caesarean seems like such a minute concern beside all these other issues!
Still, we will continue to pray that Janine will arrive by Christmas, and that the Lord will grant a smooth and efficient natural delivery. Guess that's what our faith is about - a delicate balance between clinging on to that glimmer of hope, yet at the same time saying to the Lord that "I surrender all". We can only rest in the blessed assurance that God knows what is BEST for us!
Hi!
ReplyDeleteCan identify with you.. After Joshua's emergency caesarian delivery, I really wanted to try natural too. Am thankful that Emily came out naturally... but guess what? I really preferred the C-section leh!! I find that natural was so much more painful.. not just the labor but the healing process too. So for no. 3, I was so hoping that I can opt for C-section for Zach, but both gynae and hubby discouraged me against it.. But God is good to me lah.. we needed to do another emergency C-section again becos of complications.
So God is good.. heh.. whatever we wish for.. Like you said, God knows what's best for each of us.
Ah, sweetie... what can I say? Mm... I can understand why you desire a natural birth. I pray that God will be gracious to you. If it be a natural one, pray that He will give you the strength.
ReplyDeleteI was looking at Sammie's photos and I'm so pleased she's a huge baby! Siao right? Yah, even after the difficult labour, no regrets. But it's frightening... wondering if God will give me enough strength to push out a heavier babe, if I'll have post-natal complication, bad tear, more kegal exercise!!! :-( Like what Lil said, God knows what's best for each of us. Need to trust Him...